First off, I went to the doctors today. Which some good and some bad came out of it. I have a nasty ear infection going on for over a month. I have to go to a specialist. But I’m not complaining too much because that means I don’t have to play gym for a while because of how sick it’s making me. But missing that much school is REALLY stressing me out, omfg. But on the plus side, I lost five pounds. Which is sooooo good. Probably because I haven’t been really eating, but whatever. I just hope I lose a lot more. I am so sick of being fat. It really just needs to go away. I weigh more than my older brother. It’s pathetic…
Next, I’m making a pumpkin for Zack Merrick’s Amerrickan contest. I had the PERFECT idea, I just hadn’t bought my pumpkin to do it yet. & Whatta ya know! Some girl did my EXACT idea. AND it’s his FAVORITE…so far. But now, I feel like I can’t compete. I love Zack Merrick more than life itself and if I don’twin this contest I’m going to be sosososo upset. ): Especially since I got too sick when I saw All Time Low on the 13th to stay longer and meet them. UGHHH. I need to get an awesome idea or else I’m so screwed.
Another thing, I have next to no filter currently. I am so terrified I’m going to say something that is going to mess up something in my life. Omfg. I’m sick of being sick, it makes me such a bitch.
ALSO, I’m having a reallllllly hard time telling my boyfriend my feelings lately. Which is stupid, because he tells me his. UGH I suck. Life sucks. This sucks. But in all reality, I’m in a good mood, I have the best boyfriend, I just wish I wasn’t a shitty girlfriend. He deserves the best and as of right now that’s not what I’ve been giving him. Shit. No one is even going to read this. But I definitely needed to vent. I’m going right now.. Ugh.
Love you babies. xo